..the beauty of surrender. It's the safest, scariest thing we can ever do, relinquishing ourselves and laying down our rights, wills, and dreams before our Redeemer".
The last year and a half here at the NTM training has been so valuable and we thank the Lord for our time here. We've been growing, changing. We can see the Lord showing us things in our hearts and lives that need some attention and we know He is growing us in the areas of family, relationships and what ministry looks like.
I have finished the course and graduated at the end of May. But at this
time we have decided in fellowship with the leadership not to continue on with
NTM. This was a huge decision for us and not one we took lightly.
It is has become clear to us that there are things in our lives that would hinder our ministry on the mission field. We desire to see these thing worked through and healed in order to be more effective in our relationships and ministry here and/or overseas.
It wasn't easy. This was the Lord asking us to lay down "our rights, will and dreams" before Him.
Our entire married life our goal has been to serve overseas in missions as a family.
So when this door was closed I'm not gonna lie, it hurt. It was confusing. It was scary.
It has been a challenge to refocus and see where God wants us to go from here. I'm excited though. I'm excited to see where the Lord leads us. Because I know He will. He's been faithful this far and I know He's not going to stop being faithful to us now.
10:23 reminds me that we are not the ones directing our steps and it is a comfort to know that it is the Lord who directs our way.
I wish we could tell you exactly what our plans are but we’re
not exactly what our future looks like at this point. But I can't yet.
Thankfully we know our God has it all under control and we can trust Him. Anyway it seems like we make plans and the Lord changes them every time! Not that I mind since His ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts higher than my thoughts. He sees the big picture while i only see this tiny moment in time.
I have a hard time writing about deeply personal stuff on such a public place so that's a reason why i haven't talked about this before now. But please feel free to email me if you have questions or leave a comment and i'll be happy to answer if I can.